Die Schläge

i need to write down something, im not sure what is it, but i can not just sit still today.
my mind have been swirling here and there, about this one thing.
i can not breathe well, my lungs might be affected by this.
i tried to do some running in open air, thought it could help but it didnt.
this whole thing started off since i dont know when. quite some time, though.
picture me, driving a car, heading to the mountains. wild, untamed mountain, not the one like some sort of picnic area.
its impossible to get there, right? i realized this fact a few times ago, and i tried to change direction.
and still somehow, i am lost. i believe that my road still leads to the mountains, somewhere i am really scared to head now.

this is about you.
you who i could not be standing next to.
i do not know how your feelings toward me, and i dont intend to know.
i am too scared.
as i walked beside you, i felt great secure.
you might not concern this, but i felt like home.

today, yesterday, and the days long before, i cannot keep my minds off you.
tried to run, pretending there was absolutely nothing, but i couldnt.
i just want to go home, where you at.
i want to feel free.
i heard somewhere that love should be freeing. its about letting go.
i want to breathe well again, and stop imagining things.

i ran to the beach, but the waves reminded me of your struggle through life.
i ran to the mountain, but the winds reminded me of how gentle you
have been treating me.
i ran to a crowded town, but it reminds me of how lonely i am without you.

been running from this feeling for so long
telling my heart i didnt need it
pretending i was better off alone
but i know its just a lie
so afraid of what i feel inside
but i need to be next to you
i can not bear the thought of you’re not there …….Leigh Nash-Need To Be Next To You

maybe surrounded by a million people, i feel so alone
i wanna go home
i been keeping all d letters that i wrote to you
i would send them but i know thats just not enough
my word was cold and flat and u deserve more than that…….Michael Buble-Home

the more I think, the more I tumble
I feel like leaving, as strong as I feel like living
Tiba2 teringat rumus persamaan 1+1=0. maybe I’ll just have to stand
away, or everything will backfire on me.

Ich habe grosse Angst von dir.
Was soll Ich machen dann
Viele Sehnsucht auf dich,
Soll ich hier bleiben oder sehen wir aufwieder?
Gott gib mir dein Stark

This entry was posted on Thursday, July 14th, 2005 at 3:41 am and is filed under Uncategorized. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.