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kemarin malam, well sebetulnya dari siang juga, g kejebak di kemacetan yang menyebalkan. yah di jakarta emang sih gak pernah gak macet, tapi ini beda! due to non-stop-gede baget-raining dari siang, jakarta banjir! and g memilih waktu yg salah buat hanging out with d girls dari daerah barat itu….( see ladies, rumah kalian sucks lokasinya!!! ). Keluar dari rumah aja udah susah payah, karena musti ambil mobil di tempat lain dulu, which males banget jalannyaaa ujan-ujan gituuu.

WEll anyway, i got myself on the road finally, menerjang hujan, on my way to the meeting place, saying to myself, this is gonna be a longg day.. cuma 2 kilo dari rumah, i was already stucked di jalan yang seharusnya gak macet. then worst part is ketika ngambil TOl Jakarta-Merak untuk ke kebon jeruk, di pinggir tol air udah menggenang….then banyak SUVs yang musti didorong. OK, lucky i didnt take jalan pinggir tol itu, coz turned out motor pun udah kelelep sampe tempat duduknya itu loh. gila. dag dig dug juga nih, i was on my own, if something should happen, misalnya kelelep juga, what i should do??? tapi ntah kenapa, hari itu i was like having nothing to worry about. so i said, OK jo, if ure ever got into any trouble, there WILL be a way.

di tengah kemacetan gila itu mobil-mobil udah pada berebut ambil jalan masing-masing, udah gak peduli sisi yang mana yang seharusnya dikasih jalan duluan. including me. all i can think was, sebaiknya cepet-cepet sampe sebelum banjirnya tambah deket. mungkin g saat itu nyeruduknya agak-agak maksa ya, atau motor itu yang nyebelin???? ya somebody menggebuk my back bumper real hard. i sighed. grumping. mengatur napas pelan-pelan…gedein volume radio…dengerin lagu. IF it was not raining, i probly udah keluar dari mobil deketin whoever that was yg gebuk mobil g. untungnya ujan gede.

LATER THAT NIGHT, dari meeting place, di kejauhan g liat itu tol yang tadi siang g lewatin, macet total. FREE WAY, tapi macet yeah, mayb banjirnya emang separah itu. g bikin janji sama 3 orang, 2 gak bisa dateng dari pulang kantor. kantor mereka lokasinya di karawaci dan BSD, which musti lewat TOL itu untuk sampai ke jakarta lagi. As malam udah semakin larut, i decided to go home instead, prepared. i have enough fuel to hold on and already went to the bathroom before i go ( hehehe…udah sering g kualat gak pergi dulu ke toilet sebelom long journey, akhir2nya selalu sial kena macet n had to menahan pipis ). g gak melihat sih berapa kilometer itu dari pintu tol ke exit yang harus g ambil. tapi kira-kira sih gak lebih dari 10 kilo. on 80km/hrs speed, angka biasanya di jalan tol, should reach the exit in 10 minutes top. i took the free way untuk menghindari banjir di pinggir tol. TAPI i was stucked kira2 1 jam di jalan itu, udah ngantuk mah, dingin…(serba salah, mo matiin AC buka jendela, all i inhale is CO dari kepulan asap truk-truk besar di kiri kanan depan belakang), n nervous also! i forgot to bring along kunci rumah…..hahahahahah…udah telpon rumah sih bilang nyokap tolong tungguin, tapi kan gak enak juga bikin susah orang tua. its past 11 pm, they should be in bed already.

at one point, ketika g lagi bengong-bengong, and i know lokasi g udah gak jauh dari exit tol, i looked to right. kok mobil-mobil di sisi kanan lancar ya? my exit ada di sebelah kiri. sambil menyemburui mobil-mobil itu, i keep bengong-bengong, determine untuk menunggu…dan menunggu….dan menunggu….30 minutes berlalu. udah gak tahan tambah ngantuk, mo ambil jalur kanan aja deh, belok ke Slipi, daerah yang gak begitu tau, tapi bisa lah cari jalan pulang, lagipula jalanan masih ramai, gak terlalu bahaya juga.

TURNED OUT YA! ketika ambil jalur kanan, it leads to an empty road. dan GILAnya, it was the road i was supposed to take. karena ada perubahan jalan segala macem di perempatan besar itu, jadi semua ngaco. now i know. geez. i feel plong seketika.hahahahahahaha.dari spion keliatan semua truk besar and a million cars kali, masih nunggu giliran belok kiri….fiuhh…it felt like… i just smiled along the way home.

ketika lewat dari macet itu, i was thinking. this is the feeling ive lost beberapa waktu ini. segala kepusingan itu, the courage and willing finally to take a chance on somthing risky, and the smiling face. i love hectic situation. thats the exact situation i should be in. pumping out adrenaline through the bloodstream, and u feel ur heartbeat’s increasing. love it

and my love life, or whatever, really doesnt concern me much again. i did write in my previous post that i like this one guy, but yeah, im not gonna tell him. im just gonna stand, maybe sometimes ahead, sometimes behind, or sometimes right next to, but im just gonna be there for him, whether he realize that. i dont care.

ask not what your country can do for you, ask what you can do for your country. the same thing goes for me.

ask not what others can do for you, ask what you can do for others. I WILL do whatever i can do. and its not for some acceptance, coz who are you people to judge me? its for myself. this life i am living on, i will live it heartly, passionly, and not to carefully. coz life is about taking chances and walking through risks.

oh i feel great today!

the sun is always out there to shine, but it doesnt always burn.

grosse Angst, das hab’ ich nicht mehr! 

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