Die Schläge

I was on my car, headed to my bro’s place that night when i saw a poster on the window of the car infront of me. SAJAMA CUT. i couldnt see the rest of the writtings coz of the traffic. I was so curious about this Sajama Cut, whatever it was. I assumed it has something to do with Poems reading or Photography exhibition or some sort of.

Then, yesterday, i took a walk and stopped by at a music store. And there it was, Sajama Cut was on display! Turns out they’re a band. With cool tunes. Check out their site @ www.sajamacutband.com

I like their lyrics, very unusual, in a good way. The music is not very catchy, but i love the lyrics, so what the heck Their album entitled OSAKA JOURNALS. Here, this is one good song:

—-TAKE CARE INAMORATA—

Shake it like a true preyed hound. Fools are left for cold. People love for who you are. How they love you, you’re the star. Must we know the end of our show? Must we one day be what I’ve never think of us to ever be.

Well if you go to the truest skies, find a place to hide. But in the end we’ll lie to the skies, our love will be our vitamins.

Wake me when its time to toast. We’ll feast our own way. Rave goodnight to your friends and folks. Give them a linger of (a) smile.

—–

Sudah lama gak berburu hal-hal seperti ini, hidup dulu indah ternyata. Explore new things. Lucunya sehari2 sekarang cuma dijalani aja tanpa ada planning apapun. Every afternoon, home, i can only say "Thank God today is over". My line used to be "Whew, cant wait for tomorrow comes". Aduh jadi panjang blognya. Gpp deh, udah lama gak nulis juga kan. Gara2 Sajama Cut ini jadi eager mo nulis hehehehe. Dan tentang Nikon D50… *wink2* g akan dapet, no matter what! Despite billing rumah yg membengkak…atau ancaman bangkrut…i just gotta have it. And i can assure myself that everything’s gonna be better then ^-^` ( my spirit, emotion, job, perspectives ). Finally, have something worth to fight (pay)for

By the way, what is it with pria2 manja ya? Geez, kok ada org2 seperti itu yg cuma nyusahin pacarnya…yg udah susah2 siapin makan, sampe nangis2 cuma urusan kecil. Tsktsktsk…Kiki, bertahanlah!! Kalo dia tambah lama tambah aneh, udah tinggalin aja kenapa?? Blom kepentok umur buat nikah kan? You totally deserve better deh…pacarmu aneh nak…pendiam nan menyebalkan…bahkan g aja ngeliatnya gitu, gimana lu yg ngejalanin ya?? Atau cinta mati? Dah gak jaman lah. Hm Hm…ya, klo cinta emang laen deh. Anything is OK for the sake of love (not!)

OH guys, the ones who read my blogs. Tell me, do i REALLY look that boyish? Coz aku baru saja diomeli wanita cerewet a.k.a Sasa just bcoz i dont listen to her so called beauty advice. HM! is it just me or seharusnya memang diperhatikan hal-hal seperti itu?? Yeah i take a good care of my body, tapi gak segitunya lah, oh please. There are loads of better things to do then to pilih2 which perfume to wear today…ya gak??? *galak* Your opinions are welcome

Es is erst ein Monat…..weg damit!

Dear friends,

Karena hati g sedang bergejolak, jangan eneg ya baca blognya belakangan pasti banyak soal cinta2an gitu….writtings i will surely laugh about years later, but now means so much to me.

I found some of the latest writtings in my scracthbook i wrote years ago n decided to paste ‘em here. AGaknya, it has always been the same.

To whom it may concern, hehehe, gak bermaksud menambah beban beratmu nak, i just need to explode…

aku terdiam saat kau mengucapkannya
tapi dalam hati ku tersenyum
dengan usahamu kau buat aku senang
dan aku memang senang
dengan usahaku ku buat kau tinggal

dan aku terdiam saat kau mengucapkannya
tapi dalam hati aku meringis
dengan usahamu kau buat aku mengerti
dan aku memang tidak mengerti
dengan usahaku ku buat kau melihatku senang

dan lagi-lagi aku kembali terdiam saat kau mengucapkannya
dengan usahamu kau buat aku tidak menangkap kesedihanmu
tapi aku mengerti
dengan usahaku ku buat kau belajar melepasnya

dan aku terdiam, kali ini menunggu kata-kata darimu

aku mencari bayangmu
hanya bayangan,
mau mati rasanya bertahan
menunggu dan menanti
ketika aku tak tahu jika kau pun
bila kau anggap ku ada?
pentingkah ini?
tak salahkah aku berdiri?

yang ku tahu
yang ku paham
yang ku nanti
bersamamu saja

mau ku merajuk
ingin ku berteriak
mau ku kau tahu
ingin ku kau

salahkah bila
ada kau di hatiku?

keterdiamanmu
ketakpedulianmu
kesalahanku
kerapuhanku
mengejar dirimu
membuatku gila

and so it is,
just like i thought it would be
lets just kiss
and say goodbye….
mampu gak ya?

angin hitam itu
berhembus dingin…

satu persatu nafas diambil paksa
dari jiwa-jiwa yang memberontak
mereka yang masih dalam gelap
kembali ditelan gelap
orang besar itu memegang kapak bertongkat
berteteskan darah-darah hitam
mengalir dengan deras
raungan…teriakan..hujatan..
mempercepat semuanya

ketika habis sudah hari itu
mereka beranjak pergi
nafas lega boleh berhembus sesaat
tapi mereka akan kembali
esok hari…

there is always a reason to stay
i kept saying to myself, get up and go!
i did, only i went back
there arent no ways of me leaving you
i tried every single path

i got ill
i won a lottery
i saved a life
i met an old friend
i screwed up at work
in between, i cant stop thinking
how much i want to tell you these things

and when they asked,
are you in love?
i have no idea, i said
if this is love,
why do i break down inside
why cant i share a smile with you
why the hell i feel so lonely?

so many questions left unanswered
sometimes i feel the urge of asking
many other times i just shrugged
and hold my breath

courage.
put your ego aside
yeh, try to fit in my shoes
then you’d know
that this is the only way

i met my cousin today. i felt rather awkward seeing him, coz its been awhile since our last meeting. i dont really know him that well, what i understand is how people judge him for what hes done in the past.
he was using drugs. so bad that he actually is infected by the virus. so bad that he told me, today, that he wanted to committ suicide and he failed. he lives.
he has kids, 2 of em, and a wive who doesnt want to meet him anymore.
responsibilities he said, what made him strong. dignity, i can say that he regained it, no matter what people say.
" i can not make money, yet. thats not my priority. with my spare age, i want to help them who have same problems as mine. me and them, we share things that normal people wouldnt understand. i must help them, and through that, i feel worthy "
God, this is the guy who i had fear from. it was a shock to all of us when he was told ill. and sadly, we all avoided him. we slipped our hands. we DID NOT support him. we failed him.
and he had such a great ego that he believed that he could stop being a junkie with his own strenght. and he failed.
he now believes that there is a GOd. there are reasons why God make him live.
other then the supreme power of GOd, i too believe that he survives because he still have FREE WILL. we will meet our destiny, but the road we take is not a simple long and winding road. it bifurcates so many times and it is our FREE WILL that will lead us along the journey.

yes, life is risky. yes, life can be bumpy. thats why you need to take 3 things important. 1> free will. 2> take and give. 3> belief.

im not sure what im trying to say, but i feel like i need to share it hehehheeh…pardon my confusement..(is that even a word?)