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i tried to be not as plain as i could be. i tried to add colours in my life. but the truth, im not very fond of it.

im just this white marshmallow. plain white, but sweet. tastes better when toasted.

ive tried to brighten up your day and did things that hopefully would popped me out a bit from my tiny little world and actually be noticed.

but i guess it would never be enough. i wont try to be who i am not. and hope that you too will be satisfied enough. if you dont…that we are not meant to be together. if the path is still there, you and i will meet again.

awan menghitam hari ini sayang,
begitukah disana?
termenungku sedari pagi
yang kuingini lari dan memelukmu
tapi tak mungkin…

di ujung sana kau terdengar sedih
kau benar, 4 bulan yang berat
tidakkah kau tahu, tiap helaan nafasmu mencekikku
mata sayumu..tundukan kepalamu…hisapan rokokmu..
belajar pasrah katamu?

malam ini lebih dingin dari kemarin
kau kehilangan lagi
aku kehilangan orang yang tak akan bisa pernah kutemui,
dan aku menggigil

sabar sayang,
menangislah..kuatkan hati,
aku disini
menunggu matahari menghalau kelabu